The boys are 4 weeks old today. It's still surreal. Every day, I visit the hospital and take care of these 3 little beautiful people. I can't believe I delivered them almost a month ago.
It's still getting harder to leave them all the time. Hearing them cry when they get their heels pricked or their temperatures taken immediately sends me into hysterics. I've cried more in the last 4 weeks than I have in 10 years.
I don't feel as powerless as I did in the beginning. I was always tiptoeing around the nurses, afraid to do the wrong thing. I'm more confident...I'm not afraid to say that I want them to wear mitts on their hands when I'm worried about them pulling on their feeding tubes or an extra onesie when I it seems cold. It sounds ridiculous now.
It's been a month since we found out our little guy was acting so strange because he'd developed diabetes. Today he spent the day at the vet for a glucose curve, and even though his numbers were still a bit high, it feels like we may finally be at a point where everything is calm and normal again. I'm not as nervous about the daily shots, which means Velcro isn't as nervous about getting them. Always an adventure with these pups!
I think this is the first time I've done a sawtooth border--I love how it looks!
I've been scrolling through the marybethhale Etsy shop a lot this weekend. I'm in love with most of the women's clothing and seamstress items. I can't imagine a world in which I'd have the occasion to wear any of it, but if I could, I would wear these dresses on the daily.
We're finally settling in to our new home, and now that I can catch my breath, I've been planning our gardens. Since it's late summer, there isn't time to make as much progress as I'd like, but we can at least set the framework for spring.
Two of my favorites are in the ground--lavender and yarrow. I'm still new at gardening, and am not too familiar with the soil yet, but I'm hoping for big lavender cuttings next summer!
This is a small patch in front of our house that was bright green grass a week ago! Chuck is killing it off and plans on digging it up soon so we can turn the whole area into a garden.
We're making progress!
A month or so ago, the older lady who lives across from us stopped me outside and told me how she chats with my dog when she goes out on her walks (Fina spends most of her day on our wide windowsill). I laughed but was secretly horrified, since Fina barks (and barks) at every small outside disturbance.
Today, however, I got home from work early and opened the windows. Our neighbor did stop and chat with our dog, who looked on without a peep. I was hidden from sight, and it was my favorite part of the day.
It still amazes me that I can hear a new song on the radio while driving home from work, ask my phone to identify it, and then play it back over and over again for the next hour while I cook. It will never not be incredible.
Anyway, I needed a new love song today, and I got one. Say You Won't Let Go is really great. Perfect for sitting back and having emotions.